Pairing: HunHan
Author/ Original fic: Parku Gone (Not around any longer)
Here is, the second and the last part of Gone Not Around, hope you guys ejoyed the first part! ^^ I don't know what should I say about the last part......... >_<
Yup, is sad reading the end of this fanfic... after reading it you guys will know what I'm talking about. Let's read! :D
In advance: Sorry for the spelling errors due to the fact that my English is not quite good. Hope you guys like it~
Overview: The strong sound of a train. The feeling that I was missing something more important than my own life and then darkness. Absolute darkness. And nothing now remained.
-Happy birthday, Sehunnie - whispered on the top of his neck, hugging him from the back and leaning my chin on his shoulder. Looking at the beautiful Lake extending forward of us. I felt strangely calm despite what we'd done the night before... It was the first time someone touched me there and, and the same time, the first I touched someone else beside myself.
-Thank you, LuHannie. So, because we are together- he replied, pulling his hand back and stroking my hair a few seconds before turning his self, still in my arms, and steal a kiss. It was the morning of his birthday and not long ago that we had raised us contracted, as always we slept in sleeping bags, but happy.
-Come, I want to give you your gift- I asked him, taking him by the hand and walk to the tent and getting inside of my backpack a small square package wrapped in gift paper.
-For me?- he smiled, spreading me.
-Of course, You thought I was not going to make a gift?
-I thought that coming here was my gift - he confessed sheepishly.
-That is something that we always do... I wanted to give you something else - I explained as we sat on the lawn - come on, open it to see if you like it- smiled, watching him tear the paper with emotion.
-LuHan! - exclaimed happy - The new Justin Bieber's CD! And seven signed! - his eyes shone by the emotion - how did you get it? - questioned, hugging his gift.
-Via the internet - I just say and wonked him an eye. The truth had cost me all my savings and a contribution of money by my mom. I would not going to tell him about the exaggerated sum of money that had cost me to be a simple CD with a signature made with permanent marker.
-Thank you, thank you- whispered, wrapping me in his arm which is not clung to the CD -is just what I wanted.
-It is nothing, you deserve it - drew me to give him a quick kiss on his soft lips.
Unfortunately the trip happened faster than we would have liked, and back we had to go to school. I yawned with the mouth open while waiting Sehun train station. I closed my eyes and let the warm Sunlight to give me in the face.
I choke with my own saliva by the scare that I took to feel as someone caressed me a cheek, and I opened my eyes alarmed, finding with me the beautiful smiling face of Sehun.
-Hi, sorry that I scared you ... You looked so cute- smiled him shyly while with a gesture I showed him that we started to walk.
-Almost gives me a stoppage, but there is no problem - joked, looking at him askance.
-Lu... Look at me - asked, while we went out to the street -Sorry- said with some childlike voice when I looked at him and, with a fist in the side of his face and a stew, enlarged his eyes -Bbuing bbuing!- exclaimed. My cheeks and ears were colored by the tender scene that had just witnessed.
-If you do that, more than forgive you I want to pinch you, and maybe bite you a bit - I warned him, making him laugh out loud while we returning our peaceful walk.
-Lu?
-Yes?
- What if we skip class today and we'll go to the Bubble tea shop? - suggested.
-Sehunnie we can not skipped, you already know it...
-Lu? - repeated, interrupting me. I went back to look at him -Bbuing bbuing?- sighed heavily, paying me to his tenderness.
-Come on, I invite- smiled. Sehun always achieved me to do what he wanted.
-Yesss! - celebrated, hanging from the top of the sleeve of my coat.
Already in the business, each with a bubble tea, we sat at the table furthest from the people.
-I wanted to give you something, also by that wanted to skip class- said Sehun, taking something from his backpack. I looked at him curiously, before opening the small paper bag that he gave to me. I took a simple, yet beautiful, frame with a photo already placed. We were both smiling at the camera, he having an arm over my shoulder. The first picture that we had taken in the last camp -wanted that you also had them- I smiled and looked at him.
-I love it, thanks- I bit my lip seeing the tender how gladly taking his bubble tea of chocolate.
-I am very glad that you'd liked it... But you need to look at something- I frowned -back of that picture, there's more- winked me an eye. I took the back of the frame, noting that there were three more pictures: in one, you could see my face with a sincere smile and him giving me a kiss on the cheek, in another the two looking us in the eye and smiling with the brilliance of the first love in the eyes, and the last is of us two kissing –I thought that you probably didn't want those to be in sight of everyone, so I chose another to be infront and hid those so that you could see them when you wanted to- he explained. My chest puffed of happiness to his gesture, and to see how much he knew me. I reached out a hand to stroke his slightly who was leaning on the table.
-Thank you- repeated. And with the lips, without emitting any sound, I added: -I love you.
-Me more- was his silent response, also pronounced with the lips only. We both smiled.
- Sehun ... - I started talking as we walk through the park a little later, I think I'll have to go to the optometrist...
-Why? - he looked me surprised.
- Lately my sight is not as good as always... I can't see very well - squint to see a green sign nailed on the grass - You see that? - I pointed out.
-Yes...
-I can't read what it says... And before I know I could, besides, we are not really far from it- I felt his hand rough me up and looked at him.
-Tell your mom... And when you have to go to the doctor, I'll accompany you- ended, smiling.
A few months later I already used to wear glasses. The doctor had said that I going to need them permanently at the moment, but when I'm older maybe I could operate and don't have to use them anymore. However, I liked how I look. And it seemed that Sehun too much more. In addition to the new glasses, in a fit of madness, I dyed my hair to blonde hair; and my boyfriend didn't seem to want to remove his view of me. It had always been this way, but lately it was more notorious.
A Tuesday morning, which was equal to any other except for the fact that I fell asleep, and I had to meet with Sehun. It was holiday and we wanted to take advantage of advance with some subjects.
I bathed quickly and I wore an dark blue jean, a white shirt and a grey diver, and ran to the train station to find him and return together to my house. It was getting quite late, and I wished that he would have not expected much.
The station was in chaos. Upon entering the railway sector, cost me process what I was watching and listening to: loud noises, screams, people on all sides, smoke and cries. An alarm went on in my brain and my heart beat very strong while searching for what I cared most in this world. A huge knot formed in my throat to not find Sehun anywhere. I could only see the wrecked train, people crying, hurt or unconscious, doctors, police and firefighters. But any trace of Sehun. Somehow I thanked him for the chaos, because no one noticed when I slipped into a wagon, which knew that he always chose to travel. And then I found it, and a heartbreaking cry escaped my throat. Sehun was passed out on the floor, with a deep cut on his head and a small pool of blood around it. I felt a slight glimmer of hope inside me to see that it was whole, it was just a cut. A cut that was bleeding badly. I ran toward him.
The sweat ran down my face and back, making my clothes is sticking to my body while trying to not cry. Sehun's mom was next to me, sitting in the waiting room of the hospital, sobbing non-stop. So I ran a hand up on my forehead, reaching to the fringe and pulling it back. My glasses slipped up to the tip of my nose because of the sweat that I had on my face. A door opened to our left and we both put up in our feets quickly. A man walked somberly to us.
-Relatives of Oh Sehun?- asked.
-Yes, I'm his... mother- said SunAh intermittent, due to the breath holding spells. The doctor offered him a package of tissues, with a touch of sadness in the eyes. And, until he mentioned, I knew it. I started to walk back slowly, without sticking out my eyes of the man who would give me the worst news of my life.
- I'm really sorry, we couldn't do anything ... He had a TBI ... That is ...- I stopped listening to the doctor, who explained to the mother what had happened to Sehun while she kept crying.
I ran, I ran with all my strength to my house and climbed the stairs to lock me in my room, crying heartbreakingly. And i can hardly breathe for the accelerated it was my breath and compulsive crying that wanted to leave all together, without giving truce to my eyes, lungs and heart. I fell to the ground not being able to keep standing anymore and I sat down, hugging my legs and sinking my head between them. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket but didn't care until it sounded for the fourth time. I attended immediately to see the name of my mom on the screen.
-Luhan, why you didn't answered the...?- kept quiet hearing a sob from me - are you crying? - I didn't replied, I simply left my heavy and agonizing breath hit the mic of the phone -son, why are you crying?- asked in a concerned tone.
- Sehun ... Sehun died, Mom- I replied in a broken voice, and went back to crying while cleaning my nose with my diver sleeve.
-Are you at home? - I made a sound of affirmation - I'm going there - I cut the line as soon as she had finished speaking.
I looked at the phone screen, and noticed that I had a text message without reading. Knowing who it was, and with tears still falling, I opened it.
"LuHannie! I was late, so I couldn't take the train on the same schedule as always. If you get there before me, wait for me. Already want to come and see you ... I missed you so much even though we saw yesterday! Although i always heard that one can not love so young, it has no way to know for sure how you feel, I can say that I have fourteen and I know it. I love you, Luhan! and nothing can change that. I hope to spend the rest of my life with you, and be the only one to kiss you and love you. Maybe is not the best saying it here, but felt I had to tell you now. That this was the moment. This message is already very long, haha. I'll see you in a while and don't forget, I love you! So much!"
I started to hyper ventilate, without being able to see by uncontrollable tears. The memories came to my mind, piling and making a hole in my soul and heart.
His face, his skin, his hair, his reddened cheeks, his voice, his slight lisp, his smile, his lips, his smell, his kisses, the sparkle in his eyes. His aegyo, his obsession with the bubble tea of chocolate, how always convinced me of everything. That beautiful grin that used to made when he was focused, or when he knew that I was plotting something. The camps. Our first kiss. The first time I saw him, how he insisted me to keep his orange pencil.
My hand dropped the phone, and I lay on the floor. I screamed, kicking furiously several times my desk chair and let the pain took hold of me.
The next day, Oh Sehun was buried along with my happiness.
-LuHannie...-said my mother entering the room with a tray. My eyes were burning so much because of the crying and the words "Oh SeHun, beloved son and brother" were repeated in my mind. Still believing that those simple words don't do justice. "Best person who ever existed" "The best boyfriend in the world" "Oh Sehun, the more tender boy that there were" or "Oh Sehun, the person who loved more Xi LuHan" were some valid options for having added to his tombstone.
I was still wearing the black pants and the red shirt that had been used at the wake. People had looked me bad for the color of my clothes, and judging me, but just me and his mother understood the reason for my colorful upper garment: That shirt was Sehun's, and he had given it to me because he thought I looked better in it. He liked to see me with that clothes on -I brought you food... pizza, what you like the most- spoke my mother quietly, sitting beside me on the bed. My gaze was lost on the wall.
-I'm not hungry - I replied.
-Son, you have to eat - deposited the tray on my nightstand. I sighed.
-Okay- I grabbed the dish, I took a small bite and left the pizza slice where it was before -is good, thank you- I went back to look at the wall, feeling a touch in my hair. My eyes filled with tears at the sweet gesture of my mom. Sweet, like Oh Sehun.
-LuHan...-looked it, with tears falling - Sehun... wasn't just your friend, was it? - despite the overwhelming anguish, that just don't let me think and react, I was surprised. I denied with the head.
I cried in the arms of my mother until very entry the morning, when I was convinced her to go to sleep in her bed because she saw it really tired. However, I did not sleep. The pain prevented me from sleeping, eating, watching, and even breathe normally.
And I could not respond to his "I love you" I thought with a lump in the throat. It was the first time he told me, and I had not had the opportunity to respond. Tell him that I also loved him very much. I felt I had to get something out from inside of me. Immediately, or not going to be able to continue.
I went to the bathroom and opened the medicine cabinet, looking for a painkiller for a headache that will not leave me alone. It was almost empty, but something caught my attention. What still remained of the belongings of my dad, who had gone a few months ago.
A razor blade. Tiny, silver and bright. I looked at it fixed and, slowly, went my hand. I hesitated a moment but finally I held it between the fingers of my right hand. I looked at it again, almost with morbid fascination, then set my eyes on my left wrist.
Without even thinking about it, I approached the metal sheet to my skin and made a small cut slightly below the zone of veins. I sighed in relief, feeling all the pain in my heart being replaced by the cold felt at my wrist. I made another small cut, creating a straight line slowly turned red. I felt free. Another cut, but this time more large and deep. Watching the blood run, I started to cry again. But not less empty.
With a poor bandage on my left wrist, I went back to my room. I wore a long sleeve pajamas, to cover band and wounds, took off my glasses and I put myself under the thick blankets, trying to get some sleep; ignoring the severe pain in my wrist. I wasn't proud of what just had made, but had helped me to feel even a little bit more relaxed, and felt less weight on my head and chest. Maybe it was for the "liberation" or perhaps the loss of blood, but this time I managed to fall asleep.
The strong sound of a train. The feeling that I was missing something more important than my own life and then darkness. Absolute darkness. And nothing now remained.
Note: There is it! the last chapter~ I apologize for the delay. I've been with exams I have not been able to continue with your translation, I hope you enjoy and share the fanfic which is very nice though sad, please comment on what you thought and forgive me for my english spelling.
I wanna thanks once again the author for letting me translate this wonderful fanfic! Enjoy it ^_^
Original fanfic: Gone (Not around any longer)
Translated by: Yongxin
Author's twitter: Park Gong Sik
Translator's twitter: Yongxin
Here is, the second and the last part of Gone Not Around, hope you guys ejoyed the first part! ^^ I don't know what should I say about the last part......... >_<
Yup, is sad reading the end of this fanfic... after reading it you guys will know what I'm talking about. Let's read! :D
In advance: Sorry for the spelling errors due to the fact that my English is not quite good. Hope you guys like it~
Overview: The strong sound of a train. The feeling that I was missing something more important than my own life and then darkness. Absolute darkness. And nothing now remained.
-Happy birthday, Sehunnie - whispered on the top of his neck, hugging him from the back and leaning my chin on his shoulder. Looking at the beautiful Lake extending forward of us. I felt strangely calm despite what we'd done the night before... It was the first time someone touched me there and, and the same time, the first I touched someone else beside myself.
-Thank you, LuHannie. So, because we are together- he replied, pulling his hand back and stroking my hair a few seconds before turning his self, still in my arms, and steal a kiss. It was the morning of his birthday and not long ago that we had raised us contracted, as always we slept in sleeping bags, but happy.
-Come, I want to give you your gift- I asked him, taking him by the hand and walk to the tent and getting inside of my backpack a small square package wrapped in gift paper.
-For me?- he smiled, spreading me.
-Of course, You thought I was not going to make a gift?
-I thought that coming here was my gift - he confessed sheepishly.
-That is something that we always do... I wanted to give you something else - I explained as we sat on the lawn - come on, open it to see if you like it- smiled, watching him tear the paper with emotion.
-LuHan! - exclaimed happy - The new Justin Bieber's CD! And seven signed! - his eyes shone by the emotion - how did you get it? - questioned, hugging his gift.
-Via the internet - I just say and wonked him an eye. The truth had cost me all my savings and a contribution of money by my mom. I would not going to tell him about the exaggerated sum of money that had cost me to be a simple CD with a signature made with permanent marker.
-Thank you, thank you- whispered, wrapping me in his arm which is not clung to the CD -is just what I wanted.
-It is nothing, you deserve it - drew me to give him a quick kiss on his soft lips.
Unfortunately the trip happened faster than we would have liked, and back we had to go to school. I yawned with the mouth open while waiting Sehun train station. I closed my eyes and let the warm Sunlight to give me in the face.
I choke with my own saliva by the scare that I took to feel as someone caressed me a cheek, and I opened my eyes alarmed, finding with me the beautiful smiling face of Sehun.
-Hi, sorry that I scared you ... You looked so cute- smiled him shyly while with a gesture I showed him that we started to walk.
-Almost gives me a stoppage, but there is no problem - joked, looking at him askance.
-Lu... Look at me - asked, while we went out to the street -Sorry- said with some childlike voice when I looked at him and, with a fist in the side of his face and a stew, enlarged his eyes -Bbuing bbuing!- exclaimed. My cheeks and ears were colored by the tender scene that had just witnessed.
-If you do that, more than forgive you I want to pinch you, and maybe bite you a bit - I warned him, making him laugh out loud while we returning our peaceful walk.
-Lu?
-Yes?
- What if we skip class today and we'll go to the Bubble tea shop? - suggested.
-Sehunnie we can not skipped, you already know it...
-Lu? - repeated, interrupting me. I went back to look at him -Bbuing bbuing?- sighed heavily, paying me to his tenderness.
-Come on, I invite- smiled. Sehun always achieved me to do what he wanted.
-Yesss! - celebrated, hanging from the top of the sleeve of my coat.
Already in the business, each with a bubble tea, we sat at the table furthest from the people.
-I wanted to give you something, also by that wanted to skip class- said Sehun, taking something from his backpack. I looked at him curiously, before opening the small paper bag that he gave to me. I took a simple, yet beautiful, frame with a photo already placed. We were both smiling at the camera, he having an arm over my shoulder. The first picture that we had taken in the last camp -wanted that you also had them- I smiled and looked at him.
-I love it, thanks- I bit my lip seeing the tender how gladly taking his bubble tea of chocolate.
-I am very glad that you'd liked it... But you need to look at something- I frowned -back of that picture, there's more- winked me an eye. I took the back of the frame, noting that there were three more pictures: in one, you could see my face with a sincere smile and him giving me a kiss on the cheek, in another the two looking us in the eye and smiling with the brilliance of the first love in the eyes, and the last is of us two kissing –I thought that you probably didn't want those to be in sight of everyone, so I chose another to be infront and hid those so that you could see them when you wanted to- he explained. My chest puffed of happiness to his gesture, and to see how much he knew me. I reached out a hand to stroke his slightly who was leaning on the table.
-Thank you- repeated. And with the lips, without emitting any sound, I added: -I love you.
-Me more- was his silent response, also pronounced with the lips only. We both smiled.
- Sehun ... - I started talking as we walk through the park a little later, I think I'll have to go to the optometrist...
-Why? - he looked me surprised.
- Lately my sight is not as good as always... I can't see very well - squint to see a green sign nailed on the grass - You see that? - I pointed out.
-Yes...
-I can't read what it says... And before I know I could, besides, we are not really far from it- I felt his hand rough me up and looked at him.
-Tell your mom... And when you have to go to the doctor, I'll accompany you- ended, smiling.
A few months later I already used to wear glasses. The doctor had said that I going to need them permanently at the moment, but when I'm older maybe I could operate and don't have to use them anymore. However, I liked how I look. And it seemed that Sehun too much more. In addition to the new glasses, in a fit of madness, I dyed my hair to blonde hair; and my boyfriend didn't seem to want to remove his view of me. It had always been this way, but lately it was more notorious.
A Tuesday morning, which was equal to any other except for the fact that I fell asleep, and I had to meet with Sehun. It was holiday and we wanted to take advantage of advance with some subjects.
I bathed quickly and I wore an dark blue jean, a white shirt and a grey diver, and ran to the train station to find him and return together to my house. It was getting quite late, and I wished that he would have not expected much.
The station was in chaos. Upon entering the railway sector, cost me process what I was watching and listening to: loud noises, screams, people on all sides, smoke and cries. An alarm went on in my brain and my heart beat very strong while searching for what I cared most in this world. A huge knot formed in my throat to not find Sehun anywhere. I could only see the wrecked train, people crying, hurt or unconscious, doctors, police and firefighters. But any trace of Sehun. Somehow I thanked him for the chaos, because no one noticed when I slipped into a wagon, which knew that he always chose to travel. And then I found it, and a heartbreaking cry escaped my throat. Sehun was passed out on the floor, with a deep cut on his head and a small pool of blood around it. I felt a slight glimmer of hope inside me to see that it was whole, it was just a cut. A cut that was bleeding badly. I ran toward him.
The sweat ran down my face and back, making my clothes is sticking to my body while trying to not cry. Sehun's mom was next to me, sitting in the waiting room of the hospital, sobbing non-stop. So I ran a hand up on my forehead, reaching to the fringe and pulling it back. My glasses slipped up to the tip of my nose because of the sweat that I had on my face. A door opened to our left and we both put up in our feets quickly. A man walked somberly to us.
-Relatives of Oh Sehun?- asked.
-Yes, I'm his... mother- said SunAh intermittent, due to the breath holding spells. The doctor offered him a package of tissues, with a touch of sadness in the eyes. And, until he mentioned, I knew it. I started to walk back slowly, without sticking out my eyes of the man who would give me the worst news of my life.
- I'm really sorry, we couldn't do anything ... He had a TBI ... That is ...- I stopped listening to the doctor, who explained to the mother what had happened to Sehun while she kept crying.
I ran, I ran with all my strength to my house and climbed the stairs to lock me in my room, crying heartbreakingly. And i can hardly breathe for the accelerated it was my breath and compulsive crying that wanted to leave all together, without giving truce to my eyes, lungs and heart. I fell to the ground not being able to keep standing anymore and I sat down, hugging my legs and sinking my head between them. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket but didn't care until it sounded for the fourth time. I attended immediately to see the name of my mom on the screen.
-Luhan, why you didn't answered the...?- kept quiet hearing a sob from me - are you crying? - I didn't replied, I simply left my heavy and agonizing breath hit the mic of the phone -son, why are you crying?- asked in a concerned tone.
- Sehun ... Sehun died, Mom- I replied in a broken voice, and went back to crying while cleaning my nose with my diver sleeve.
-Are you at home? - I made a sound of affirmation - I'm going there - I cut the line as soon as she had finished speaking.
I looked at the phone screen, and noticed that I had a text message without reading. Knowing who it was, and with tears still falling, I opened it.
"LuHannie! I was late, so I couldn't take the train on the same schedule as always. If you get there before me, wait for me. Already want to come and see you ... I missed you so much even though we saw yesterday! Although i always heard that one can not love so young, it has no way to know for sure how you feel, I can say that I have fourteen and I know it. I love you, Luhan! and nothing can change that. I hope to spend the rest of my life with you, and be the only one to kiss you and love you. Maybe is not the best saying it here, but felt I had to tell you now. That this was the moment. This message is already very long, haha. I'll see you in a while and don't forget, I love you! So much!"
I started to hyper ventilate, without being able to see by uncontrollable tears. The memories came to my mind, piling and making a hole in my soul and heart.
His face, his skin, his hair, his reddened cheeks, his voice, his slight lisp, his smile, his lips, his smell, his kisses, the sparkle in his eyes. His aegyo, his obsession with the bubble tea of chocolate, how always convinced me of everything. That beautiful grin that used to made when he was focused, or when he knew that I was plotting something. The camps. Our first kiss. The first time I saw him, how he insisted me to keep his orange pencil.
My hand dropped the phone, and I lay on the floor. I screamed, kicking furiously several times my desk chair and let the pain took hold of me.
The next day, Oh Sehun was buried along with my happiness.
-LuHannie...-said my mother entering the room with a tray. My eyes were burning so much because of the crying and the words "Oh SeHun, beloved son and brother" were repeated in my mind. Still believing that those simple words don't do justice. "Best person who ever existed" "The best boyfriend in the world" "Oh Sehun, the more tender boy that there were" or "Oh Sehun, the person who loved more Xi LuHan" were some valid options for having added to his tombstone.
I was still wearing the black pants and the red shirt that had been used at the wake. People had looked me bad for the color of my clothes, and judging me, but just me and his mother understood the reason for my colorful upper garment: That shirt was Sehun's, and he had given it to me because he thought I looked better in it. He liked to see me with that clothes on -I brought you food... pizza, what you like the most- spoke my mother quietly, sitting beside me on the bed. My gaze was lost on the wall.
-I'm not hungry - I replied.
-Son, you have to eat - deposited the tray on my nightstand. I sighed.
-Okay- I grabbed the dish, I took a small bite and left the pizza slice where it was before -is good, thank you- I went back to look at the wall, feeling a touch in my hair. My eyes filled with tears at the sweet gesture of my mom. Sweet, like Oh Sehun.
-LuHan...-looked it, with tears falling - Sehun... wasn't just your friend, was it? - despite the overwhelming anguish, that just don't let me think and react, I was surprised. I denied with the head.
I cried in the arms of my mother until very entry the morning, when I was convinced her to go to sleep in her bed because she saw it really tired. However, I did not sleep. The pain prevented me from sleeping, eating, watching, and even breathe normally.
And I could not respond to his "I love you" I thought with a lump in the throat. It was the first time he told me, and I had not had the opportunity to respond. Tell him that I also loved him very much. I felt I had to get something out from inside of me. Immediately, or not going to be able to continue.
I went to the bathroom and opened the medicine cabinet, looking for a painkiller for a headache that will not leave me alone. It was almost empty, but something caught my attention. What still remained of the belongings of my dad, who had gone a few months ago.
A razor blade. Tiny, silver and bright. I looked at it fixed and, slowly, went my hand. I hesitated a moment but finally I held it between the fingers of my right hand. I looked at it again, almost with morbid fascination, then set my eyes on my left wrist.
Without even thinking about it, I approached the metal sheet to my skin and made a small cut slightly below the zone of veins. I sighed in relief, feeling all the pain in my heart being replaced by the cold felt at my wrist. I made another small cut, creating a straight line slowly turned red. I felt free. Another cut, but this time more large and deep. Watching the blood run, I started to cry again. But not less empty.
With a poor bandage on my left wrist, I went back to my room. I wore a long sleeve pajamas, to cover band and wounds, took off my glasses and I put myself under the thick blankets, trying to get some sleep; ignoring the severe pain in my wrist. I wasn't proud of what just had made, but had helped me to feel even a little bit more relaxed, and felt less weight on my head and chest. Maybe it was for the "liberation" or perhaps the loss of blood, but this time I managed to fall asleep.
Note: There is it! the last chapter~ I apologize for the delay. I've been with exams I have not been able to continue with your translation, I hope you enjoy and share the fanfic which is very nice though sad, please comment on what you thought and forgive me for my english spelling.
I wanna thanks once again the author for letting me translate this wonderful fanfic! Enjoy it ^_^
Original fanfic: Gone (Not around any longer)
Translated by: Yongxin
Author's twitter: Park Gong Sik
Translator's twitter: Yongxin
